It's always someone else when it comes to suicide. Ernest also used to think so; but now he has reached a point where he sees it as his only choice. He is unsure yet if he would end up taking this extreme choice. He knows that there is always a choice other than this extreme choice. He thinks about it. He realizes that there are more than one, in fact. Yet, with every other possible choice, he can find some fault. Some wrongness in choosing them. Most of the wrongness is because of the fear of what people would think. To other people, taking those alternative choice would look pointless. It is not their fault. Taking those other choices indeed makes less sense if the extreme choice is not used for comparison. And other people are not thinking of the extreme choice. But Ernest is. And hence, to Ernest, it makes a lot of sense to take any of the other choices except the extreme choice. Still he can't bring himself to make any of the other available choices because of the fear of other people. Ernest knows that once he ends himself, the same other people would talk about him. They would say how Ernest was such a nice guy and how he didn't have to end his life; how he could have chosen anything but death. But they would realize this only after he takes this extreme choice. Only then would they begin comparing the other available choices to him with his death. But to begin this comparison, to see the other possible choices for Ernest in light of this irreversible choice, they need to know that Ernest is someone who can take this choice. And so Ernest decides that that is what he needs to do. He needs to tell the other people, "Hey you, look at me. I know I don't look like the person who can take the choice of death, but I have become that person. I am that person because of you all. Because if I don't take this choice, you will never realize that I had other options." Unfortunately Ernest knows that there are only few ways of conveying this to people. Talking to them about this will only end up in sympathy, but not the true realization, the true belief that Ernest has other choices. So Ernest thinks, "What is the other way out?" The other way out, and it seems to Ernest as the only way out, is to actually make that choice. Then people would know that Ernest did indeed have other choices. The only caveat in this case, though, is that after making this choice, it would be too late for Ernest to make those other choices. And those other people will forget this realization sooner or later and some fine day, a Sylvia, a Kurt, a Robin or a Marilyn would again have to make this beautiful choice to make the world re-realize that there are other choices that people could have. But those other choices vanish in the thin air of impossibilities just because other people don't have this realization. And the world will go on with one less soul. And another tale of life - and death - would be forgotten.